Stress and sad

I am always sad and stress out in this family no matter how hard I tried. Hubby is not use to be pressure so he is always stress out and got tired. I will always be the one as back up...I have been so tired of doing it for the past 25 years. I really wish I could put a FULL STOP on it and go to rest forever.

He has a mum that is sooo free to go out with friends but sooooooooo HARD to spare us a couple of hours once in a blue moon to help us when I am desparately needed help. I really wish to shout out loud to them. I am a human being, just a simple lady. How do they expect me to handle everything? She always said that is my husband so I have to take care. Even when he felt and broke his back bones.

The kids are mine so I have to do the job even when I am sick and dying. I told her I have depression but she still said leave it to God. What kind of mother is she? Money changes everything.

I dont have a mother or mother in law that know how to love. They are crazy. They are devil. I am really suffering. What should I do? Why can't they help? The kids are innocent.

I got depression as a result of their torturing. 1st a mother that left the young child home alone with the neighbours of gangster and drug addict. She never thought what if the girl will be rape or killed.

Then a mother in law that will bang her bath room doors open and scold her when she is naked. What has I done wrong? I just asked her Queen daughter's son (her grandson) not to throw his ball in the house. It almost hit my instant noodles that I was having. Do I deserved that? Hell she goes....

She even switch off the TV while I was watching and off the whole house light before she went to her daugther's house. She always like to have light in the house but because I was sitting there, she must have it off. How evil is she.

At first I do not blame her. She is an uneducated woman and it all start with the poisoning from her daughter who turns become billionair. She told them we are infillial, we are poor and can't afford to buy things for the the 2 old folks. However, who paid for the air cond that her precious daughter N was using before she become rich?

I hate them for torturing me. I tried to be strong for the kids but I really can't. I often cry and shout and curse..It is not a good enviroment for my 2 prince but I can't control myself. I am scare and I am sad.

Can someone tell them to please stop that. Can God takes them away from me?

Please!!!!